Well, I started feeling even worse. By Wednesday, I was having horrible stomach cramps, and everything that goes along with that. Luckily, it only lasted 2 days because I wasn't even able to eat a popsicle. I'm sure that it's a combination of things, but I'm also having terrible anxiety and depression. It's some of the worst that I've ever had.

Don't get me wrong, I know that I could certainly have things a lot worse. I do have the ability to recognize that. I think that I just have sooo many questions. How long have I had this?  is this the cause of my "unexplained" infertility? I think about all the time that has passed by and all the tests that I've had done. I wonder if I'll ever feel better, and how long will it take. It's all so very overwhelming. If you've ever experienced depression, you know that none of your logical thoughts stop you from feeling so down. I have even started having bad dreams, including one that involved Griffin getting taken by a bear. It's awful.

I'm feeling better today, and I'm really hoping that it continues to get better. I have an appointment with my Dr tomorrow to go over everything. I also have an appointment on Wed with a nutritionist. I'm really looking forward to that, and have a list of questions all ready for her.

On the plus side, I went to Walmart yesterday because I was running out of food that I could eat. I was pleasantly surprised by their selection of gluten free. It was an unmarked section and I just happened to stumble upon it while looking for anything I could find that was GF. They had a few things that my grocery store didn't have, and it's nice to know that between the two I have a decent selection to choose from. Mostly, I need to get back to cooking and start adapting recipes to be GF. I have enough stuff on hand to eat when I'm in a hurry, but I need to start making meals. Tonight we grilled some steak tips, and I baked one of the GF corn bread mixes (Gluten Free Pantry brand) that I picked up. I was shocked....it was actually one of the best corn breads that I've ever had. I expected it to be crumbly and flavorless, but instead it was delicious. It was a tad crumbly/crunchy like a lot of the GF stuff, but not enough for anyone to think it was any different from a gluten filled corn bread. I have a second mix from Bob's Red Mill, and I can't wait to make it and compare.